I have chosen to include this in my blog because it is good to realize that I did not go from victory to victory... it was an uphill climb to gain victory and strength in my body and to continue to remain there... I thank God that my body gets stronger every day and my immune system is getting stronger every day and my lungs are getting stronger every day! It was no fun to live according to what my "body" would allow me to do in a day!(comment added on June 13, 2014)
August 25, 2009
Even though these are not the greatest or strongest thoughts I have ever had I should write them down so I can begin to process them. Right now my body is struggling for every breath and every bit of energy to do anything...even writing this down. The fibrosis and joint pain and weakness along with the immune issues have been slowly breaking down my body again. It would be so easy to roll over and let them take my life right now. I have had to fight for everyday of my life to stay alive. I am just tired of the fight - the fevers - the pain when I breath - the energy it takes to eat each and every bite of food to keep me alive - the weakness in my hands, shoulders, knees and elbows - the never ending fatigue. I know I can have victory over everything if I seek God with everything I have left... but that takes energy too. It is just overwhelming. These struggles don't even include being a wife and a mother.
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