Healings

In 2006 the book "70 years of Miracles" impressed upon me the importance of going to God first and honoring God by having Him provide for all our needs... no plan 'B'.  We have seen many miracles and healings since I have strived to put this into practice.  Honoring God by going to Him first with everything!  It is a struggle to remember to do this all the time... in Canada healthcare is free and readily accessible, food is plentiful, we want for very little.  We live very comfortably.  It is easy to go to doctor or the drug store as our first instinct rather than taking it to God first and standing on what His word says instead.  I often think about Richard Harvey and his book still.

I am thankful for the many miracles that have happened in my life and the shortened list of daily struggles.  I am thankful that everyday I am getting stronger, my immune system is getting stronger, my lungs are getting stronger, I have more energy and I am getting better at standing on God's promises for me without fear or question.

Isaiah 53:5
But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon Him; and with His stripes we are healed.

1 Peter 2:24
Who His own self bore our sins in His own body on the tree, that we, being dead to sins, should live to righteousness: by whose stripes you were healed."

These are the scriptures that I stand on in faith for healing just as strongly as I accept that Jesus died for our salvation.  His stripes paid for our physical healing.

Some of the healings and miracles that have happened 2004 till Present (many of these symptoms may show up from time to time but I am getting better at rebuking them and standing on the truth right away so the symptoms must leave!)

-Depression.... so thankful that the ugly monster of depression is no longer a part of my daily life!

-Fibromyalgia... Used to effect my body but hasn't for years already!

-Joint pain in my knees, feet, hands, shoulders... Not an issue anymore... Praise God!

-PMS... Used to be useless for days on end... Actually used to affect my life for 2-3 weeks every month... Now if I am in the word of God and not neglecting my spirit I can go a month without even noticing it.

-Chronic Infections... used to be an issue on a regular basis... I haven't had pneumonia in several years and fever spikes are becoming less and less frequent.

-Rusty Nails... Stepped on a rusty nail & claimed healing... it bled out for a couple of days... didn't go in for tetanus shot... I read that the reason puncture wounds are high risk are because they don't usually bleed out well.

-Bladder infections... for a while I was getting them quite frequently.  I have become good at claiming healing right away and the symptoms don't often appear at all anymore.

-Warts... have had warts fall off or disappear.

-Rashes... have had rashes that were there for over a year and a half disappear after praying about it.

-Laryngitis... After my airway was narrowed for a prolonged period of time in 2005 my airway was healed July 10th after praying about it.  This is another one that disappears easily with rebuking it at first sign of any symptoms.

-Sore Back... don't even remember what that was like... Know it was a struggle though.

-Low blood pressure... Don't feel faint anymore.

I don't understand it all... I just know that by faith it works.  When we have faith and do not doubt and do not have fear then the word is able to work and healing happens as a result.  I guess that is why God says do not fear or be afraid so often in His word... He knows that it hinders our faith and ability to receive all that he has promised us.  Fear is like a red flag telling us that that is one thing that we have not trusted God with yet.  I still have some red flags to conquer in my life but it doesn't look so much like a mine field anymore :-)

I am NOT ok with not being healed because my body must fully glorify God!

Who Am I??

Daughter, grand-daughter, great-grand-daughter, niece, cousin, sister, friend, blond haired, blue-eyed, Caucasian, disciple of Jesus Christ, artist, creative, baby-sitter, the one who used to have a trach, nanny, wife, aunt, mother, the one who loves babies, the one who ran a daycare in her home, the one who others prayed for, the one who was a La Leche League leader for 6 years, the one who is a doula, the one who home-schools her children, scrapbooker, the one who owned The Crop n' Craft Room, the one who worked at Kings, the one who co-ordinates the Good Food Box group for Rosthern, the one who attended MPCC, LHAC, Calvary Church, and RAC, youth leader, the one who eats slow, the one who speaks with a strong whisper, the one with no epiglottis muscle or vocal cords, woman of faith!

Over the past 10 years or so it has been impressed on my spirit, this thing of identity. Asking for healing one moment and identifying with the symptoms as a part of who I am in the next. How easy is it to separate myself from something, a trait, a symptom, that others identify me by daily for as long as I can remember. How hard is it to just let go of the things that so easily roll off my lips...

"I speak with a strong whisper, it's not usually a problem"

"It's not laryngitis, it's been like this since I was one, it's permanent"

"My vocal cords are paralysed"

"I don't have an epiglottis muscle"

"I eat slow or I choke"

"I have to chew my food till basically mush or I can't swallow it"

"I have to watch that I don't over do it or I can get sick easily"

"I can't handle more than a coffee or two per week or my body feels it"

"I'm good at listening to my body and what it needs"

"I can get bacterial infections easily due to damaged lungs"

"I have a compromised immune system"
"my immune system is always weaker this time of the month"

....and the list goes on and on (fortunately it is getting shorter :-)

So the question is, how does God see me?  Who has He created me to be?  How do I change what I believe, what I think, what I say and how I feel, about who I am?  How do I "un-wravel" the lies and stop identifying myself by the very things that I want God to change?  How did the disabilities and limitations become woven into who I am in the first place?  How do I get to the place where I only identify myself through the filter of the truth found in God's love letter to me?

I guess if it was easy to release the part of me that identifies with the disabilities, I would have done so years ago and would've been fully healed. 

It would be so easy if the symptoms were cold or flu like, or like a bladder infection, or minor injury....I have gotten better at not taking ownership of any of that stuff (sometimes with the help of a friendly reminder from a friend). Rebuking it right away in the name of Jesus and the symptoms almost always leave the first time. It's funny how faith rises up so easily to claim the healing, that Jesus took stripes to give me, on some things. But then others the war still rages on to keep me captive to those symptoms. 

I have made progress however, I used to fear having a voice and now I long to be able to use it. 

Healing is not something I have to work to earn since it is already provided...I was reading in a devotional book this week and it really summed it up well...

"Romans 10:17 says, "so then faith cometh by hearing, and hearing by the word of God."  Hearing God's word causes faith to rise up on the inside.  When you release that faith, you get results.  That's why Mark 9:23 says, "All things are possible to him that believe."

God made it easy for you.  He said simply to hear and be healed.  So if you're having trouble believing God for your healing, don't try to work it up.  Go back to the Word and "hear" what He said.  Then just keep on hearing until faith rises up on the inside.  Healing will be  the result!"
~31 Days of Healing by Mark Brazee

I know that God has impressed upon me to spend much time soaking in His word.  I need to make it a priority so God can do what He wants to do through my life.  I know that reading God's word and deciding ahead of time that I will not lower my theology to my level of experience but rather raise my level of experience to the level of God's truth and His promises alone...will produce results, no but's about it!