Moments of Spiritual Significance

Psalms 22:9-10
"But you are He that took me out of the womb: You did make me hope when I was upon my mother's breasts.  I was cast upon you from the womb: You are my God from my mother's belly."

From the moment I was born God has kept me and protected me from He that comes to kill, steal and destroy.  I cannot remember a time in my life when I did not have the hope of God's promise in my life.  I quite often have said that God must have a great purpose for my life- why else would Satan try so hard to snuff out my life, ruin my marriage, access me through my kids, keep me busy through my own perfectionism and use whatever other devices he could against me.

34 years ago, shortly after I was born my lung's collapsed.  My mom tells the story of my doctor coming into her room the next morning and telling her that I had "slivers in my knuckles" from knocking on the pearly gates.  My angels worked overtime early!

Just over a year later I was hospitalized again for what the doctors believed was throat cancer, which was quickly closing off my airway.  After the biopsy my parents were told that there was little chance of me surviving the next 24 hours.  God had other plans!

Shortly after that I was trached at Sick Kids in Toronto, Canada.  My doctor declared that I was a miracle baby since he could not find any airway and was required to do a stab tracheotomy procedure.

Through all of this my brain was protected and although I faced many medical procedures from the age of 1 to 17 my life was relatively normal.

Looking back God used times in the hospital to expose me to so many life experiences and teach me great compassion for those in different situations.

I was born with a extremely strong spirit.  Over the years it has helped me and it has also hindered me.  My spirit has kept me seeking God throughout my lifetime.  I have had an unwavering faith in Jesus from a very early age.

My spirit has also led me into rebellion and on searches for justice when none was to be found.

Recently I realized that the spirit of rebellion has had a stronghold and ran through almost every area of my life.  Rebellion against parents, medical personnel, teachers, pastors, authority structures, and God.  Working through this and re-structuring my thoughts on proper authority structures and how God has designed authority to work has taken time and is still a daily process to learn and live it out.

I could come up with all sorts of excuses for why these walls of rebellion went up in my life, however, there really is no excuse that would justify it.

How do I do justice to all that God has accomplished in my life over 34 years?  I am not worthy of all the Love He has shown me through protection, patience and mercy!!

John 10:10 "The thief comes only in order to steal, kill and destroy.  I have come that you might have life--Life in all its fullness"

Psalms 22:9-10 "It was you who brought me safely through birth, and when I was a baby you kept me safe.  I have relied on you since the day I was born, and you have always been my God."