The Hardest Decisions Always Were Made at the Kitchen Table!

Of all the decisions ever made in our home, this had to of topped a few people's lists.  A decision to choose between 2 surgeons, 2 hospitals and my future!  I remember my mom and I sitting at the kitchen table discussing, making notes, drawing pictures and of course holding fast to oposite sides of the issue!

I was holding strong to the option that Dr. Crysdale explained to us.  This was mainly from pure fear!  Fear of a new hospital, new nurses, new doctors, new policies and a new life with no trach.  I could not even imagine what life would bring if the other option worked.  Maybe I was even afraid of what would happen if it failed like countless surgeries before.  Maybe dashed hope's were more than I thought I could handle.

My mom was very patient and totally left the final decision up to me.  I could tell which way she was leaning by the way she talked and what she said about each option.  At the end of our discussion I was left with some pick papers and a lot to think over!